Complex.

Salam,

Human beings are complex creatures. Allah has made that way. From their internal organ system to their preferences in life. All in one complex, heavily winded, complicated machine. So complicated it confuses me. Up to a point where I'm getting tired with life. When I know I shouldn't be.

Indeed I am lonely, despite friends circling around me. But how can I be lonely when Allah is always with me, watching me without even a picosecond of absence? Tepuk dada tanya iman..

Yes..iman berbolak balik... hati pun berbolak balik..how to get it back? How to have it to stay on top? I need someone to push me.. I need Allah to push someone to push me to get back on track...It's just so difficult right now....

I don't know.

True success

What is true success in life?

Owning everything in this world? An interesting and lucrative career? Well behaved family? Worldly happiness? Getting a Class 1 Honours? Passing exam with flying colors? What..? What constitutes success?

"Wahai orang2 yang beriman! Mahukah kamu Aku tunjukkan satu perdagangan yang dapat menyelamatkan kamu dari azab yang pedih? Iaitu kamu beriman kepada Allah dengan harta dan jiwamu. Itulah yang lebih baik bagi kamu jika kamu mengetahui. Niscaya Allah mengampuni dosa2 dan memasukkan kamu ke dalam syurga yang mengalir di bawahnya sungai2, dan ke tempat2 tinggal yang baik di dalam syurga Adn. Itulah kemenangan yang agung" (as-Saff: 10-12)

A note for myself:

Stop thinking about nonsensical stuff. It's all in God's hands. You just have to live up with it...being hopeful to God, but without hoping anymore than what He has given or is giving you. Because He loves you, and He wants the best for you, even though you might it is not the best.

Nuff said.

Ya Allah, kenyang dan tak sakit kepala dah... Alhamdulillah

Salam..

The topic is not relevant to what I'm gonna be presenting... it's just that I got this exerpt while feeling the way I am from the topic. Hehe.

Anyhow, below is what I got from my weekly nasiha from a canadian website. ask me for the url if you're interested =) (haha, I feel like I'm actually talking to myself only)


Relieving Distress of Others

One of the greatest things that will relieve a person's distress on the Day
of Resurrection is his efforts in this world to relieve the distress of
those who are in distress, and to help those who are in need, and to
make things easy for those who are in difficulty, and to overlook the
mistakes of those who err. In Muslim it is narrated thatAbu Hurayrah said: The Messenger of Allah (sallallahu alayhi wa sallam) said:

"Whoever relieves a believer of distress in this world, Allah will relieve him
of some of the distress of the Day of Resurrection. Whoever makes
things easy for those who are in difficulty, Allah will make things
easy for him in this world and in the next. Whoever conceals (the
faults of) a Muslim in this world, Allah will conceal him (his faults)
in this world and in the Hereafter. Allah will help the slave so long
as the slave helps his brother." [Mishkaat al-Masaabeeh, 1/71, hadith no. 204.]

Bukhari narrated from Abdullah ibn Umar that the Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him) said: "The Muslim isthe brother of his fellow-Muslim; he should not mistreat him or let him down. Whoever meets the needs of his brother, Allah will meet his
needs, and whoever relieves a Muslim of some distress, Allah will
relieve him of some of the distress of the Day of Resurrection. Whoever
conceals (the faults of) a Muslim, Allah will conceal him (his faults)
in this world and the next." [Bukhari: Kitaab al-Mazaalim, Baab laa Yazlim al-Muslim al-Muslim, Fath al-Baari, 5/97.]

Source:
"The Day of Resurrection in the Light of the Qur’an and Sunnah" - Umar Al Ashqar

Ya Allah.. make me one of them who is shone with your light, always. Ameen.

The essence of Islam is understanding surah al-Ikhlas

I want to thank Allah for EVERYTHING, especially blessing me with health and wealth of 'ilm. I am so blessed with a broadband internet, in which I can download youtube series of syeikh hamza yusuf's lectures ENDLESSLY. And more importantly I am so blessed by Allah to have the inclination to hear and think such things that will make me appreciate Him even more, and that will make my eyes, ears and heart SEE who is the Creator behind all these. MasyaAllah...Ya Allah, please don't leave me.. Tundukkan hati ini sentiasa kepadaMu Ya Allah... please....... forgive me too Ya Allah for my wrongdoings Ya Allah, the things that I did not know I was doing wrong, and also the things that I did know they were wrong.. forgive me past...forgive my present, forgive my future.. purify my heart, body and soul. Forgive my family for the things they don't know or forget.. forgive my friends Ya Allah.. ikatkanlah hati kami towards your Jannah Ya Allah...Ameen...

"Is this how you see me?"

I'm baaaacckkkkkk... hehe. A nice video :)



I haven't actually signed the petition yet because.... I don't know if I can...since the Prophet's (SAW) time, the Jews were as untrustworthy as they are today with all the negotiations done.... until they surrender themselves to Palestine then we can 'negotiate'.

For us to come :)

meminta kuasa

Maksud Hadith: Daripada Abu Musa r.a. (Allah telah meredhainya) katanya:Aku dan dua orang lelaki dari kaumku telah masuk kepada Nabi s.a.w.. Salahseorang daripada dua lelaki berkenaan berkata: Lantiklah kami menjadi ketuawahai Rasulullah!. Yang seorang lagi juga berkata demikian. Lalu bagindabersabda: "Sesungguhnya kami tidak melantik dalam urusan ini sesiapa yangmemintanya atau bercita-cita untuk mendapatkannya"

*1Hadith menjelaskan satu kaedah yamg penting dalam perlantikan jawatankepimpinan atau kuasa iaitu tidak boleh diberikan kuasa atau jawatan kepada yang memintanya atau tamakkannya. Ini kerana jawatan di dalam Islam adalah amanah dan ianya diterima dengan tanggungjawab dan perasan takutkan Allah sedang mereka yang memintanya atau tamkkannya adalah tanda golongan yang merasai besarnya tanggungjawab di hadapan Allah. Maka menjadi tanggungjawabke atas sesiapa yang mempunyai kuasa menentu dan memilih untuk tidakmemilih mereka yang tamakkan kuasa.Al-Qadhi al-Baidawi (meninggal 537H) dalam mensyarahkan persoalanmeminta jawatan kepimpinan: "Tidak sepatutnya bagi yang berakal bergembiradengan suatu kelazatan yang akan diikuti dengan dengan penyesalan". Berkataal-Muhallab (meninggal 435H) pula : Keinginan untuk memperolehikuasa adalah sebab berlaku peperangan di kalangan manusia kerananya sehingga ditumpahkan darah, dicemari harta dan maruah. *

2Justeru itu, Islam menghalang jawatan daripada jatuh ke tangan mereka yangtamakkannya dengan membuat kaedah sesiapa yang meminta maka dia tidak dilantik. Ini dapat menyelamatkan dua perkara bahaya:i. Amanah kepimpinan jatuh ke tangan mereka yang tidak takutkan Allah dan tidak memahami bahawa kepimpinan akan dipersoalkan di akhirat.ii. Berlakunya perebutan kuasa di kalangan ummat yang akhirnya membawa kehancuran.Persoalan kepimpinan di dalam Islam bukan sahaja melibatkan perkarakepakaran tetapi juga membabit persoalan keberkatan dan pertolongan Allahyang bakal turun kepada kepimpinan yang beriman dan bertaqwa. Oleh itudalam hadith yang lain, yang diriwayatkan oleh al-Bukhari dan Muslimbaginda Nabi s.a.w. menasihati sahabatnya `Abd ar-Rahman bin Samurah
Maksudnya:"Wahai `Abd ar-Rahman! Jangan engkau meminta jawatan pemimpin. Sesungguhnyajika engkau diberikannya dengan pemintaan maka engkau ditinggalkan (tidakditolong). Sekiranya engkau diberikannya tanpa pemintaan maka engkau dibantu"

*3Kata al-Hafiz Ibn Hajar al-`Asqalani dalam Fath al-Bari: "Maksud hadith diatas ialah sesiapa yang meminta jawatan pemimpin lalu diberikan kepadanya maka dia tidak diberikan bantuan disebabkan keinginannya...".katanya lagi:"Sesiapa yang tidak mendapat bantuan daripada Allah terhadap pekerjaannya maka dia tidak akan mempunyai kemampuan melaksanakan pekerjaan tersebut.Oleh itu maka tidak sepatutnya diterima pemintaannya (untuk menjadipemimpin)."

*4Dalam kata lain, sesiapa yang meminta jawatan, maka Allah tidak akan menolongnya jika dia memerintah. Sesiapa yang tidak ditolong Allah tentu dia gagal melaksanakan amanah seperti yang dikehendaki Allah, sama ada yang kecil ataupun yang besar dan dalam apa urusan sekalipun. Orang telahdipastikan dia tidak dibantu Allah adalah nyata kegagalannya dari awal lagi, maka wajar dia dihalang dari diberikan jawatan berkenaan.Namun ini bukanlah bererti mustahil untuk dia melakukan kebaikan dan keadilan pada orang dibawahnya. Ada pemimpin yang kafir tetapi dapatmelakukan kebaikan dan keadilan. Ini adalah hasil daripada usaha dan kesungguhannya bersama dengan keizanan Allah. Namun pertolongan Allah, dengan keberkatan dan rahmatNya tidak akan diperolehi jika seseorangtamakkan kuasa.Di sudut yang lain, mereka yang menuntut jawatan sebenarnya telah meletak keistimewaan atau kelayakan pada sendiri. Ini adalah lambing keegoan,sedangkan Allah telah berfirman di dalam Surah an-Najm ayat 32

Maksudnya:"Jangan kamu menyatakan diri kamu suci"Kata `Abd ar-Rahman Ibn Nasir al-Sa'di dalam tafsirnya: "Ayat bermaksudjangan kamu memberitahu manusia mengenai kesucian (kebaikan) jiwamu keranamencari pujian di sisi mereka".

*5Meminta jawatan adalah suatu bentuk menuntut diiktiraf kelebihan diri dihadapan orang lain. Sedangkan Islam mahu supaya jawatan dipikul oleh mereka yang dibaluti dirinya dengan tanggungjawab, kesedaran dan penuh rendah diri di hadapan Allah dan memahami benar-benar ianya merupakan amanah dan bebanbukan tempat kemegahan.Kata Muhammad `Abd al-Qadir Abu Faris dalam An-Nizam as-Siyasi fi al-Islam:"Secara umumnya meminta menjadi pemimpin adalah dilarang di dalam Islam.Dalil-dalil dari al-Quran dan as-Sunnah yang ada mengukuh hukum haram atausekurang-kurangnya makruhnya perkara tersebut .

*6Oleh itu, para pemimpin yang beriman hendaklah memastikan mereka yangdilantik menguasai apa-apa urusan orang Islam terdiri dari kalangan yang dibantu perlaksanaan kerjanya oleh Allah ke arah kebaikan dunia danakhirat. Hendaklah dielakkan dari melantik mereka yang tidak dibantu Allah.Antara cara yang diajar oleh Nabi s.a.w. untuk mengenal individu yang tidakdibantu oleh Allah ialah orang meminta jawatan.Kata al-Imam al-Syaukani (meninggal 1255H)

: “Kesimpulan, apabilaseseorang yang meminta jawatan tidak mendapat pertolongan Allah, makaapa-apa jawatan yang dipegangnya akan menjatuhkannya dalam kesusahan dankerugian dunia dan akhirat, maka tidak dihalalkan melantik orang sepertiitu”.

*7Namun begitu jika ada yang ingin memperolehi jawatan di atas dasar mengelakkan umat dari dikuasai golongan yang zalim dan melampaui batasanAllah. Para ulama Islam seperti al-Imam al-Mawardi (meninggal 450H)ÇáãÇæÑÏí di dalam Al-Ahkam as-Sultaniyyah menyebut bahawa adakalanyameminta jawatan memperolehi pahala sekiranya tujuan untuk menegakkankebenaran dan dibimbangi orang yang tidak layak mendapat tempat tersebut

*8Pendapat al-Mawardi ini bersesuaian dengan sabda Nabi s.a.w. di dalamhadith yang diriwayatkan oleh Abu Daud : Maksudnya: Sesiapa yang meminta jawatan qadhi muslimin sehingga diamemperolehinya kemudian keadilannya mengatasi kezalimannya maka baginya syurga.

*9Ertinya, asal di dalam sistem siyasah Islam individu dilarang merebut jawatan kepimpinan umat atau memintanya, namun perkara tersebut dikecuali disebabkan darurat atau tuntutan yang amat sangat daripada sesuatu keadaan di mana jika golongan yang soleh tidak mengambilnya maka ianya akan jatuhke tangan golongan mungkar. Justeru itu, tuntutan baru muncul membenarkanjawatan kepimpinan direbut atau diminta. Ini mendorong Nabi Yusuf a.s.meminta jawatan dalam kerajaan Mesir, katany:
(56)Maksudnya:Yusuf berkata: "Jadikanlah daku pengurus perbendaharaan hasil bumi (Mesir);sesungguhnya aku sedia menjaganya dengan sebaik-baiknya, lagi mengetahuicara mentadbirkannya.Dan demikianlah caranya, Kami tetapkan kedudukan Yusufmemegang kuasa di bumi Mesir; ia bebas tinggal di negeri itu di mana sahajayang disukainya. Kami limpahkan rahmat Kami kepada sesiapa sahaja yang Kamikehendaki, dan Kami tidak menghilangkan balasan baik orang-orang yangberbuat kebaikan.

*10Kata al-Qurtubi: “Sesungguhnya Yusuf a.s. hanya meminta kuasa setelah diamengetahui bahawa tiada sesiapa yang setanding dengannya, yang dapatmelaksanakan keadilan, islah dan menyampaikan hak-hak fakir miskin. Diamelihat yang demikian itu adalah fardu `ain bagi dirinya, kerana tiadasiapa lagi selain dia. Demikian juga hukumnya pada hari ini.Sekiranyaseseorang insan tahu mengenai dirinya, bahawa dia dapat menegakkankebenaran dalam kehakiman dan hisbah, sementara tiada seseorang pun yangsesuai dan setanding dengannya maka jawatan itu fardu `ain ke atas dirinya.Wajib dia mengendali dan memintanya. Dia juga hendaklah memberitahusifat-sifatnya yang melayakkan memperolehi jawatan tersebut iaitu ilmunya,kemampuannya dan lain-lain”----------

1* - Riwayat al-Bukhari dan Muslim2* - Ibn Hajar al-`Asqalani, Fath al-Bari bi Syarh Sahih al-Bukhari, 15/22, . Dar al-Fikr, Beirut3* - Riwayat al-Bukhari dan Muslim.Ibid, jilid 15, m.s. 19.4* - Taisir al-Karim ar-Rahman, m.s. 763, Cetakan Muassasah al-Risalah,Beirut.5* - An-Nizam as-Siyasi fi al-Islam, m.s. 190. Ctk. Dar al-Furqan, Jordan6* - Al-Syaukani, Nail al-Autar, 9/159, cetakan Dar al-Jail, Beirut.7* - Al-Mawardi, Al-Ahkam al-Sultaniyyah, m.s. 95, ctk. Dar al-Kutubal-`Ilmiyyah, Beirut8* - Riwayat Abu Daud, sanadnya hasan.9* - Surah Yusuf 55-5610* - Riwayat Abu Daud, sanadnya hasan.Surah Yusuf 55-5611* - Al-Qurtubi, Al-Jami’ li Ahkam al-Quran, 9/216, cetakan Dar al-Fikr,Beirut
// posted by shahidkecil @ 8:47 PM 0 comments

My immunology test is tomorrow, and i haven't prepared myself fully yet. I was wondering... what would happen if I fail? Na'udzubillah.. and yet I'm at ease with things.. in a way it's good, because Allah never likes His slaves to be dalam keadaan huru-hara kan? Well that's true..but in another case pulak I am taking things TOO easy... as if Allah will save me even though I don't put much effort into studying... NO!!!! THAT'S NOT TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!! waa...

Even Maryam ibu kepada Nabi Isa a.s pun kena goncangkan the kurma tree to actually get some kurma from Allah... boleh je Allah bagi makanan *click* just like that.. but no, Allah wants to see your utmost effort...maybe we think that Maryam had to put just a little effort, but then maybe she was really hungry and had almost no energy.. so she shook a little bit of the tree dah tunjukkan her utmost effort, Wallahu'alam..

Yang kita ni (or to be more accurate, saya) ada extra energy.. pegilah belajar sungguh2, because belajar is a form of jihad, just like berdakwah or berperang fisabilillah is. And if you yourself is the cause of jihad yang tah pape.. wouldn't that make Allah mad?? Subhanallah!! Why would I want to make Allah mad when I only want him to bless me and love me?

Ada hadis that goes out something like this: If we know that Hari Kiamat is going to be tomorrow, and we still have to plant a plant for Allah and see it grows, would we still do it, knowing that the plant wouldn't be growing that fast, i.e. in one day?? YES WE DO!!!!!!! Allah tak tengok pada the outcome, what He wants to see our effort. And so if I do fail my immunology exam, but I've tried my best of the best of the best, then I shouldn't feel sad because Allah will, and He never lies, offer me something that is 10x greater than passing the exam with flying colors..which will be in Jannah, insyaAllah. But if I don't prepare myself well, and just buat ala kadar je, mestila Allah akan tanya pada hari akhirat nanti..why didn't I strive my best? why wasn't I being a true mujahidah when I called myself one?? Nah, rasakan balasan ni!! NOoooooooo!!!!!!! ... :( :( :( :( Please don't Ya Allah........... ampunilah dosa2ku....

My friend said, if you don't know what is wrong with you, baca terjemahan surah al-Imran.. just wanted to share a few ayahs with you:

"Setiap yang bernyawa akan merasakan mati. Dan hanya pada hari kiamat sahajalah diberikan dengan sempurna balasanmu. Barang siapa dijauhkan dari neraka dan dimasukkan ke dalam syurga, SUNGGUH, dia memperoleh KEMENANGAN. Kehidupan dunia hanyalah kesenangan yang merperdaya." (3:185)

"Kamu (org2 beriman) PASTI akan diuji dengan hartamu dan dirimu. Dan pasti kamu akan mendengarkan banyak hal yang sangat menyakitkan hati dari orang-orang yang diberi kitab sebelum kamu dan dari orang-orang musyrik. Jika kamu BERSABAR dan BERTAKWA, maka sesungguhnya yang demikian itu termasuk urusan yang diutamakan" (3:186)

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! BERSABARlah kamu dan KUATKANlah KESABARANmu dan tetaplah bersiap-siaga dan BERTAWAKALlah kepada Allah agar kamu BERUNTUNG." (3:200)

Wallahu'alam. Wassalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

HINA DINA

Men (and women) are constantly in battle with the nafs, the shaytan and the dunya and hawa (Hamza Yusuf, 2006..though I am unsure the exact difference between the meaning of 'nafs' and 'hawa', and therefore am aspire to go to Egypt for 10 years to master the Arabic language. Heh. If only). Only the knowledgable know the existence of such things, and the rest who are ignorant of them, or forget, are seriously seriously in a loss.

Because not knowing that you're fighting against the 'unseen' is more dangerous than not knowing you're fighting for a war, or an exam (like I did just now, huhu), because you're left unprepared. Like at least if you know war is coming, you'd obviously prepare yourself, if not then too bad you'll be dead in no time. But not fighting off shaytan or nafs (in which most people are not even aware of their existence!!) will make your heart deteroriate, hati mati. Bila hati mati nak dapat hidayah dari Allah pun susah... but I'm more concerned with Allah's reaction to it. OBVIOUSLY He would be angry with me if I ikut nafsu then Him... because that's just it.. I mean Allah doesn't like people who are weak and not doing anything about it...

You don't understand what I really mean that we're CONSTANTLY on battle do you. Let me give you my story. For these past few days, I had been studying for my exam. Wonder no more, it was the most horrific war..well yes, because why? it wasn't because I shed blood or had my legs and arms bruised... it was worse. Masa tu lah ada:

• Reminiscence of the past. Of my Jahiliyyah. Of the things that I've done wrong and right and how my spiritual journey to Allah began, etc. etc. Arghhh!!! Takde masa lain ke nak fikir benda2 ni? Sure it's cool to think how you changed for the better, but, hello??? What about your exam tomorrow?? I think you need more thinking for that!
• Nak tengok youtube. With the exception for Hamza Yusuf's talks, I am seriously in a battle with my nafs and the devil to watch unnecessary stuff, like oh how corrupt this world has been bla bla bla. Again, fiqh alawiyat. Syaitan hanya nak menipu kita dengan kebaikan dengan melambatkan apa yang kita perlu kerjakan masa tu juga, which is studying for my exam.
• Search engines. Oh yknow what I mean. From DNA replication to Florence Nightingale. WHATT???
  
• Etc etc. I'm a bit hungry so let's cut this.

To be honest (by right I should be), I haven't done much for studying except for fighting off, losing, and repent. fighting, losing, repent. fighting, losing, repent. and on and on and on. Tapi ada la studying bit. But I think the mujahadah was there...and therefore, Allah helped me. I did the exam just now, with His help, I answered them fully, though most of them were regurgitation-- and that was all my fault. If I had been preparing since Week 1 of school, and not waste time, I'd sure be a top Advanced Science student, in line with the former Australian student of the Year, of whom of course his name I would not tell.

Bottom line: Mujahadah, Muhasabah, Bersyukur, and selalu have in mind of how little and HINA you are to Allah Subhanawata'ala. Wallahu'alam.

Don't ever forget Him, do you know what I'm saying?

Salam..

It's 6.31 am. I can do so many things at 6.31 am. And yet I chose to blog.

It's week 14... and now it's Teusday. I have 5 assignments due this week. Can you imagine? And I haven't actually started.

Well set that aside. Had my first assignment yesterday. Oh so then make that 6 assignments this week! A friend of mine told me yesterday, "Lalui sahajalah.." yes, with usaha.. insyaAllah.

I did badly for yesterday, that's what I thought. Being in front of so many unknown people, giving a 15 min presentation in front of them was not so much of a bliss. But a dissapointed thing happened. I dissapointed Him.

I wasn't even thinking about Him when I wanted to start my talk. Tak ada pun lafaz Bismillah; I was too nervous and forgot. And yet I didn't ask Him for His help. Help is always there, but satan blurred my vision and made me scared, so scared that I forgot all about Him :(

Will that be a lesson for me...Of course. I pray that I will always remember Him no matter in what situation... Because to lose the connection with God you've established by being a good girl and all is the worst thing, worst worst thing that could ever happened. And I sucked big time because I nearly lost it (or so I thought- Allah knows best).

.....

May Allah forgive me.. ;(