A is for Allah, nothing but Allah, Ba is the beginning of Bismillah.. *nyanyi lagu Yusuf Islam..hehe*

Salam wbt...

Alhamdulillah, All Praises to Allah SWT for giving me the opportunity to write this post in a state of peace, calmness and tranquility..and that I am now temporarily free of burden from studying benda-benda duniawi.. Heh. *senyum lesu*

I don't know how to begin, but I'll just say what I want to say today. For the past 20 years of my lifetime, I've been pampered and blessed with so many things, especially with the material stuff you see today. Almost anything (that is reasonable :P) that I want to have, I can have it. No worries. Just call up Daddy and ask for the kch-ingg if the other source of money have ran out (oh yknow where the other one is from). It seems that I cannot live without my Dad, that I haven't been that independent as I thought I used to be. Well, not independent financially, that is. Well, duh, right, I'm still a student and I'm not married yet but uh, I've got some other income, yknow? It was high time for me to stop burdening my dad, seriously. But no matter how much I kept telling myself that since I moved here in Aussie, I couldn't seem to stop asking my Dad for some dough.

Until last week :)

With Allah's help and teaching, it was surprising that I didn't tell my Dad how broke I am- the brokest state I have ever been in my lifetime (How broke? I have to depend on others for decent food as I have no money left to actually buy some. Thanks, friends :) This, being absolutely broke, is a very very peculiar thing for me as I could have never imagined myself being like that, ok? Never.

I'm telling you this not to gain sympathy; it's to show you that Allah can help whomsoever He wills. Yes, 'Help' in the form of food for survival, but also 'Help' in the form of being away from feeling restless, feeling so worried that you might die out of starvation, that your financial state is doomed at that time and you're living way below the poverty line. There is temptation to feel sad, inferior and at loss if you're out of money, isn't there? I would be like that if He didn't lift my spirit up and remind me that this world is just temporary and all the material things will be soon vanished.

It is Allah, Who, at this vulnerable time in my life, saved me. He took me out of my usual perception of 'security' (i.e. by having some money in your pocket) and gave me something better: Peacefulness and resistance, and Faith.. I now feel so much in debt with Him for saving me countless times.. Ya Allah, I thank You....

I know that I cannot repay Him completely; it would never be enough. But insyaAllah I'll try my best. InsyaAllah I'll eradicate all of my jahiliyyahs that have been inside me and shun out the ones that are trying to get inside me. I hope Allah will help me with this. Ameen Ya Rabb 'Alamin.

Wassalam wbt

P/S: Please don't let sympathy overshadows the true purpose of this message. Just so you know, I am still fine, thank you. Even better (spiritually), actually =)

PP/S: After reading my recent posts, you may wonder what's this blog about and where it is heading. If God is in your mind, you are correct. For He is the basis of this blog; therefore, you may not find anything in the coming posts (insyaAllah) that does not relate to Him. Because..isn't He EVERYTHING? ;)

PPP/S: How do you like the new look of this bloggy? Thought it's a bit too fancy but oh well..it's pleasing to the eye though :)