Okay I know I have to mandi wajib again and pray, but I can't help to daydream for a bit....
There I was walking out after my lab. I didn't know why but I was really rushing uphill.. probably wanting to save time.. I was planning to go and buy groceries, so there I walked.
While I was crossing the street, I remember a friend used to tell me when we were crossing the zebra lines together, "Weh Ellin, ko gile ke apa. Stop dulu ah! Tengok kiri kanan dulu." Heck, zebra crossings are meant to be walked on, not to stop and give cars their way first because pedestrians rule the road (i mean, zebra crossings) so the cars HAVE to give way to the walkers, okay?
So yeah there I was 'speed-walking' crossing the street and---SCHREEEEEEEEEEEEECCHHHH-- and I was--AAAAAAAAAKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!-- and
BLANK.
When I could blink my eyes again, was blurry at 1st, then it was clear to me that I was in a hospital, lying on the bed. 'Great,' I thought. 'So much for "pedestrians rule the zebra crossings"...'. And again I went AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKKKKKKK!!!!!! My right leg!!!!!!
It's been plastered...
Cool :) Now I can walk with stretches (I find people with stretches and plastered leg 'cool' :P). But seriously, I don't even have my OSHC card with me (because the provider is a lame one.. i've been waiting for my card for the past 6 months), how am i suppose to pay all this? Wait, it has been paid by someone, right? Or else I wouldn't have got into a surgery and my knee plastered and whatnot. Right?
Just then I heard 2 men conversing with each other, coming towards me. I was right, they were coming towards me as I could see them then.. I know that one with the white coat is of course a doctor.. and the other is... OMG!!!!!
It's Riccardo Achilles. My lecturer. My....
crush *blush*. Well, used to be. But what's he doing here?
'Hi, Eleanor.. how are you feeling?', the doctor said whilst he and Ric smiled at me. AAAAK! No, I will not fall for his smiles again. I have berTAUBATed. And then I was explained.. that Ric was the one who hit me, and I was unconscious for a few days (wow, i might be losing weight hey! ;D) and yeah.. probably that was it.
'I'm seriously sorry, Eleanor, it was my fault for driving too fast..I was really in a rush', said Ric. 'Oh,' I said. 'Oh no, that's okay.. I was stupid for not stopping 1st..but then again, it was a zebra crossing.. but whatever it is I'm sorry too Mr. Achilles'.
NB: I wrote this story a few days back and saved it but didn't finish it. I don't think I want to because it's full of crap. I'm still publishing it because it's still an effort and for you to see how a girl like me is just like anybody else (well, anybody that had or has crushes on middle-aged- grey-haired-and-cute professor, that is).
May God forgive me for having crushes on anybody... I don't attempt to anymore, because it's totally wrong when you admit that God is the Ilah (the One and Only); you should only have feelings for Him and Him only. The love that you give for people whom are halal to be loved (like Mom and Dad, husband, etc) are actually based on your love to Allah. If you love Allah, then must love your family and your ummah. It's not the other way around, really.
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
You're so rude...then again, maybe not.
I finished Genetics lab early (Alhamdulillah!) today.. But it was in a computer lab instead of the usual lab so i got a chance to have a different lab partner. Apparently she was a Muslim girl as well, dressed in a similar way like me, pretty and her accent reminds me of Lebanese peeps in Aussie but she's actually an Indonesian. I guess she has lived here for quite a while to assimilate her way of speaking English.
Anyway, we were alright with the lab work, except when she annoyed me by interrupting while i was reading the lab instruction or when i was conversing with lab mates/tutor every now and then. The usual thing if you have just known someone, you're gonna be all polite and whatnot right? So even though I was annoyed as hell, I kept my politeness with me all the time, always. Having said that, I am polite to everyone and anyone regardless whether I have known for that person for years (uh, with a very few exceptions) or just 5 minutes.
Now, this girl, is not the usual person I know of in terms of being polite at least when you 1st meet someone new. It seemed that she wasn't inclined to befriend me because apparently the only things that she was asking or telling me during lab was regarding work. Even when we were walking out of the lab, she quickly rushed to wherever she was going..and being the friendly person I am, tried to make conversation with her and asking where she lives, etc. while keeping up with her pace.
But yeah, as the title says, she was being very rude. I asked her whether she was a third-year student because I didn't see her during my 1st year or even last session (I'm in the 2nd session of second-year by the way). Well she tried to explain but I didn't understand because it was very vague. I should have realized that she didn't want to talk about it but I asked again. She put on an annoyed face and explained again, finishing off with 'What's so hard for you to understand that? Doesn't it make sense?' and rolled her eyes.
Ouch! I haven't been hit like that for a long time.
And she rolled her eyes at me! Oh, girl, I just knew you and you could treat me like this?
Sigh. I guess people are different, and well I just have to accept what's there, yknow? And was it in the Hadis 40 that Nabi SAW says that Muslims should berbaik sangka? Well I guess I should. I guess she was sensitive with being a 'mature' student and didn't want to discuss her past. I guess she wanted to rush out because it looked like it was going to rain (Well, it is raining now).. I guess deep inside she is still a good human being (haha, as if she's being so evil, hahaha).
So there, the so-called highlight of my day. Woohoo.
Oh by the way, my dad finally replied my message. I also called my mom and everyone is doing fine. Phew, Alhamdulillah. And to top it off, my fever has cleared off.. *cough cough* well.. yknow what hasn't, yet.
Love ya!
Anyway, we were alright with the lab work, except when she annoyed me by interrupting while i was reading the lab instruction or when i was conversing with lab mates/tutor every now and then. The usual thing if you have just known someone, you're gonna be all polite and whatnot right? So even though I was annoyed as hell, I kept my politeness with me all the time, always. Having said that, I am polite to everyone and anyone regardless whether I have known for that person for years (uh, with a very few exceptions) or just 5 minutes.
Now, this girl, is not the usual person I know of in terms of being polite at least when you 1st meet someone new. It seemed that she wasn't inclined to befriend me because apparently the only things that she was asking or telling me during lab was regarding work. Even when we were walking out of the lab, she quickly rushed to wherever she was going..and being the friendly person I am, tried to make conversation with her and asking where she lives, etc. while keeping up with her pace.
But yeah, as the title says, she was being very rude. I asked her whether she was a third-year student because I didn't see her during my 1st year or even last session (I'm in the 2nd session of second-year by the way). Well she tried to explain but I didn't understand because it was very vague. I should have realized that she didn't want to talk about it but I asked again. She put on an annoyed face and explained again, finishing off with 'What's so hard for you to understand that? Doesn't it make sense?' and rolled her eyes.
Ouch! I haven't been hit like that for a long time.
And she rolled her eyes at me! Oh, girl, I just knew you and you could treat me like this?
Sigh. I guess people are different, and well I just have to accept what's there, yknow? And was it in the Hadis 40 that Nabi SAW says that Muslims should berbaik sangka? Well I guess I should. I guess she was sensitive with being a 'mature' student and didn't want to discuss her past. I guess she wanted to rush out because it looked like it was going to rain (Well, it is raining now).. I guess deep inside she is still a good human being (haha, as if she's being so evil, hahaha).
So there, the so-called highlight of my day. Woohoo.
Oh by the way, my dad finally replied my message. I also called my mom and everyone is doing fine. Phew, Alhamdulillah. And to top it off, my fever has cleared off.. *cough cough* well.. yknow what hasn't, yet.
Love ya!
Monday, August 14, 2006
Sickness and Worries
Okay, now that I have established myself as a blogger, I would of course, as bloggers do, blog.
I'm probably being selfish... because I'm not doing ANY of my uni work for the past 5 hours or so and the reason for me to blog at this time around is for ME to kill MY time...and for you to read this, it'd be a waste of time. I'm sorry, but how can you do work when you're sick to death and have got no concentration whatsoever? :(
AAARRRRGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've been a sick person for the past two days now, straight after hearing a lecture that was called 'Set Your Priorities Right'.
Right.
A not very good start to set your priorities right when you're sick. It's amazing that I can blog at this mo' but not doing anything that is related to my uni work because I think it's just 'too demanding' or 'my brain is too weak for that sort of exercise'. God, Eleanor, give me a break.
They are all just excuses I think.. I probably have to push myself harder than this. I've got deadlines to meet very very shortly, and I don't want to end up like last time. I'm telling this to myself, and to those who feel my pain (?).
Someone told me that it is good to be in sickness because then it would make you think more of God. I think that's definitely true. Who threw me this sickness? Only He who has the power and that is God. And why? Only He knows and for us to ponder! I strongly assume that He wants me to think of Him more...but I don't think I'm doing such a good job at it now...
I feel really away from my family now...yes, we are physically apart, but we can still be emotionally close, right? Well that's not happening now.. I'm being ignored by both of my parents, which is not healthy of my emotional wellbeing. I long for their love, but they can't see that right NOW. I'm sick, and they don't even know that. I don't want to tell them because I've been sick a lot and I just don't want to bore them with another news of my being sick. :(
Life goes on.
I'm probably being selfish... because I'm not doing ANY of my uni work for the past 5 hours or so and the reason for me to blog at this time around is for ME to kill MY time...and for you to read this, it'd be a waste of time. I'm sorry, but how can you do work when you're sick to death and have got no concentration whatsoever? :(
AAARRRRGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've been a sick person for the past two days now, straight after hearing a lecture that was called 'Set Your Priorities Right'.
Right.
A not very good start to set your priorities right when you're sick. It's amazing that I can blog at this mo' but not doing anything that is related to my uni work because I think it's just 'too demanding' or 'my brain is too weak for that sort of exercise'. God, Eleanor, give me a break.
They are all just excuses I think.. I probably have to push myself harder than this. I've got deadlines to meet very very shortly, and I don't want to end up like last time. I'm telling this to myself, and to those who feel my pain (?).
Someone told me that it is good to be in sickness because then it would make you think more of God. I think that's definitely true. Who threw me this sickness? Only He who has the power and that is God. And why? Only He knows and for us to ponder! I strongly assume that He wants me to think of Him more...but I don't think I'm doing such a good job at it now...
I feel really away from my family now...yes, we are physically apart, but we can still be emotionally close, right? Well that's not happening now.. I'm being ignored by both of my parents, which is not healthy of my emotional wellbeing. I long for their love, but they can't see that right NOW. I'm sick, and they don't even know that. I don't want to tell them because I've been sick a lot and I just don't want to bore them with another news of my being sick. :(
Life goes on.
A new life as a blogger :)
Wow!! I finally have some decent place to write! This is excellent, apart from being sick for over two days, and being overweight and bei--... (ok i'll shut up)
For those who know me and had my friendster and secretively (!!!) frequent my friendster blog, welcome to my new page. I hope you're aware that I no longer have that account, hence the blog because...
1. I'm tired of being pathetic
2. I'm not comfortable with guys looking at my page, and ESPECIALLY reading my blog.
So yes, if you think you're a guy, please exit now and don't come here again. I decline to share my views, thoughts and especially feelings with any male because those views, thoughts and feelings may be highly inappropriate for guys. For my girls out there, don't spread this new blog to guys, ANY guy for a matter of fact because I wish for privacy and comfortableness in blogging. Or else I have to cancel this account, which I had done for my previous site.
So welcome peeps! to my world :) (I know that sounds lame but heck.)
For those who know me and had my friendster and secretively (!!!) frequent my friendster blog, welcome to my new page. I hope you're aware that I no longer have that account, hence the blog because...
1. I'm tired of being pathetic
2. I'm not comfortable with guys looking at my page, and ESPECIALLY reading my blog.
So yes, if you think you're a guy, please exit now and don't come here again. I decline to share my views, thoughts and especially feelings with any male because those views, thoughts and feelings may be highly inappropriate for guys. For my girls out there, don't spread this new blog to guys, ANY guy for a matter of fact because I wish for privacy and comfortableness in blogging. Or else I have to cancel this account, which I had done for my previous site.
So welcome peeps! to my world :) (I know that sounds lame but heck.)
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