Complex.

Salam,

Human beings are complex creatures. Allah has made that way. From their internal organ system to their preferences in life. All in one complex, heavily winded, complicated machine. So complicated it confuses me. Up to a point where I'm getting tired with life. When I know I shouldn't be.

Indeed I am lonely, despite friends circling around me. But how can I be lonely when Allah is always with me, watching me without even a picosecond of absence? Tepuk dada tanya iman..

Yes..iman berbolak balik... hati pun berbolak balik..how to get it back? How to have it to stay on top? I need someone to push me.. I need Allah to push someone to push me to get back on track...It's just so difficult right now....

I don't know.