Sickness and Worries

Okay, now that I have established myself as a blogger, I would of course, as bloggers do, blog.

I'm probably being selfish... because I'm not doing ANY of my uni work for the past 5 hours or so and the reason for me to blog at this time around is for ME to kill MY time...and for you to read this, it'd be a waste of time. I'm sorry, but how can you do work when you're sick to death and have got no concentration whatsoever? :(

AAARRRRGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've been a sick person for the past two days now, straight after hearing a lecture that was called 'Set Your Priorities Right'.

Right.

A not very good start to set your priorities right when you're sick. It's amazing that I can blog at this mo' but not doing anything that is related to my uni work because I think it's just 'too demanding' or 'my brain is too weak for that sort of exercise'. God, Eleanor, give me a break.

They are all just excuses I think.. I probably have to push myself harder than this. I've got deadlines to meet very very shortly, and I don't want to end up like last time. I'm telling this to myself, and to those who feel my pain (?).

Someone told me that it is good to be in sickness because then it would make you think more of God. I think that's definitely true. Who threw me this sickness? Only He who has the power and that is God. And why? Only He knows and for us to ponder! I strongly assume that He wants me to think of Him more...but I don't think I'm doing such a good job at it now...

I feel really away from my family now...yes, we are physically apart, but we can still be emotionally close, right? Well that's not happening now.. I'm being ignored by both of my parents, which is not healthy of my emotional wellbeing. I long for their love, but they can't see that right NOW. I'm sick, and they don't even know that. I don't want to tell them because I've been sick a lot and I just don't want to bore them with another news of my being sick. :(

Life goes on.