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Salam alaik..

I've recently been called to work in some Malaysian cafe in Sydney (on casual basis). It's been a long time since I work there, so of course, the environment of the cafe was somewhat strange...lagi-lagi kalau you have been away from all those jahiliyyah that you see among Muslims. So strange the environment that I wish I wasn't there to watch. But Allah Subhanawata'ala made me watch for reasons He knows best. Indeed after seeing those things made me realize that the world indeed has become so corrupted that it is my duty, for I am the chosen one to remind people. In fact, it is our duty, for those who have known the truth, the purpose of life, to call on people who are lost, who need to be guided so that they too can enjoy what we enjoy, and that is the feeling of calmness and peace BUT most importantly insyaAllah, the road to Jannah.

From the past two days that I work, I see a girl who, just a month ago was donning on a tudung but now let her hair 'free', wearing tight pants, in the name of convenience. I speak to a lady who doesn't want to wear the hijab because she is scared of prejudice against hijabees, or Muslims in general, among the media-gullible society. I encounter with middle-aged men, who call themselves Muslims, but yet have the inclination to flirt, so much so that I am left feeling disgusted by how these men behave. I chat with a person called Umairah (or Mairah or something like that) who was obviously a man becoming woman, whom I call 'Kakak' (!!!!!) with her mat salleh 'boyfriend' by her side. God knows what they do at home (please don't even think about it). I SEE and sadly can't do much about it except lamenting, a family, Muslim by name (suami Yusuf, anak Aisyah), but kufr by attitude and gestures (the husband siap bawa Victoria Bitter cans into our halal cafe!!!). How I pity those children, so innocent and lost, just as lost as their parents. May Allah guide them and have mercy on them...

Ya Allah... banyak sangat jahiliyyah yang aku tengok. And yet I was just there, looking, and hating..I didn't do much to remedy the situation.. setakat tunjukkan kebaikan kat Aisyah tu, and putting on a stern face kat pakcik-pakcik gats tu, that's it. The more I look, the more tired my heart is..apart from the mental suffocation and physical exshaustion I had to endure.

Ya Allah...please forgive me. I will try my best to do what I can do next time (What can I do???? I'll quit soon after my school starts, don't worry). Will try, insyaAllah.