Heh, where was Part I? from my past blog.. too bad if you haven't read that.. I've deleted it. Along with my friendster account.
Yes, I now officially told my mom that I wanted to get married. That was 2 weeks ago, when she also said that she needed time to think and ask my whole family especially my grandma.
2 weeks later, as in yesterday, I called her up again. She actually ignored what was brought up 2 weeks ago! Haha...seriously. Didn't expect my mom to be like this. Well of course I asked her..and she just laughed. Yes, laughed. She said, "No Eleanor, you're too young.. Marriage is a big responsibility you have to face, it'll give you more problems, blablabla..."
Right.
I can't blame them for saying no anyway because the last time they saw me, I was still a young kid...immature. I accept my mom's refusal because of that. They're not convinced that I am able to get married. I was not to argue, because if I were them, I would think the same thing too.
So let's just wait til I get back... Maybe they can see me for who I am and then evaluate my capability of getting married. I don't know myself either; I thought I can get married ASAP, but that's just my own thought. Considering other people's opinion is the way to go, yknow?
But if they can just understand how desperate I am (hehe), not really in terms of having a husband, but how desperate I am to kill off the inclination (hawa nafsu) towards guys, which will then lead to my own destruction because of the 'fitnah hati'. If they could only know how desperate I am for a need of a human companion (for, the best companion is certainly Allah :) at times when my work is really taking its toll...
No, mom, I cannot have a boyfriend because that's the last thing I'd ever do. Sorry, scratch that last bit. That is the thing that I am never going to do. Why? Simple. It's haraam. Yes, now you know. If you happen to read my blog, you'd know. Huhu. But nevertheless, I think I've told you before..have I? yeah well.
Ahh... the single life. Allah knows best :)
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