Don't ever forget Him, do you know what I'm saying?

Salam..

It's 6.31 am. I can do so many things at 6.31 am. And yet I chose to blog.

It's week 14... and now it's Teusday. I have 5 assignments due this week. Can you imagine? And I haven't actually started.

Well set that aside. Had my first assignment yesterday. Oh so then make that 6 assignments this week! A friend of mine told me yesterday, "Lalui sahajalah.." yes, with usaha.. insyaAllah.

I did badly for yesterday, that's what I thought. Being in front of so many unknown people, giving a 15 min presentation in front of them was not so much of a bliss. But a dissapointed thing happened. I dissapointed Him.

I wasn't even thinking about Him when I wanted to start my talk. Tak ada pun lafaz Bismillah; I was too nervous and forgot. And yet I didn't ask Him for His help. Help is always there, but satan blurred my vision and made me scared, so scared that I forgot all about Him :(

Will that be a lesson for me...Of course. I pray that I will always remember Him no matter in what situation... Because to lose the connection with God you've established by being a good girl and all is the worst thing, worst worst thing that could ever happened. And I sucked big time because I nearly lost it (or so I thought- Allah knows best).

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May Allah forgive me.. ;(