My immunology test is tomorrow, and i haven't prepared myself fully yet. I was wondering... what would happen if I fail? Na'udzubillah.. and yet I'm at ease with things.. in a way it's good, because Allah never likes His slaves to be dalam keadaan huru-hara kan? Well that's true..but in another case pulak I am taking things TOO easy... as if Allah will save me even though I don't put much effort into studying... NO!!!! THAT'S NOT TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!! waa...

Even Maryam ibu kepada Nabi Isa a.s pun kena goncangkan the kurma tree to actually get some kurma from Allah... boleh je Allah bagi makanan *click* just like that.. but no, Allah wants to see your utmost effort...maybe we think that Maryam had to put just a little effort, but then maybe she was really hungry and had almost no energy.. so she shook a little bit of the tree dah tunjukkan her utmost effort, Wallahu'alam..

Yang kita ni (or to be more accurate, saya) ada extra energy.. pegilah belajar sungguh2, because belajar is a form of jihad, just like berdakwah or berperang fisabilillah is. And if you yourself is the cause of jihad yang tah pape.. wouldn't that make Allah mad?? Subhanallah!! Why would I want to make Allah mad when I only want him to bless me and love me?

Ada hadis that goes out something like this: If we know that Hari Kiamat is going to be tomorrow, and we still have to plant a plant for Allah and see it grows, would we still do it, knowing that the plant wouldn't be growing that fast, i.e. in one day?? YES WE DO!!!!!!! Allah tak tengok pada the outcome, what He wants to see our effort. And so if I do fail my immunology exam, but I've tried my best of the best of the best, then I shouldn't feel sad because Allah will, and He never lies, offer me something that is 10x greater than passing the exam with flying colors..which will be in Jannah, insyaAllah. But if I don't prepare myself well, and just buat ala kadar je, mestila Allah akan tanya pada hari akhirat nanti..why didn't I strive my best? why wasn't I being a true mujahidah when I called myself one?? Nah, rasakan balasan ni!! NOoooooooo!!!!!!! ... :( :( :( :( Please don't Ya Allah........... ampunilah dosa2ku....

My friend said, if you don't know what is wrong with you, baca terjemahan surah al-Imran.. just wanted to share a few ayahs with you:

"Setiap yang bernyawa akan merasakan mati. Dan hanya pada hari kiamat sahajalah diberikan dengan sempurna balasanmu. Barang siapa dijauhkan dari neraka dan dimasukkan ke dalam syurga, SUNGGUH, dia memperoleh KEMENANGAN. Kehidupan dunia hanyalah kesenangan yang merperdaya." (3:185)

"Kamu (org2 beriman) PASTI akan diuji dengan hartamu dan dirimu. Dan pasti kamu akan mendengarkan banyak hal yang sangat menyakitkan hati dari orang-orang yang diberi kitab sebelum kamu dan dari orang-orang musyrik. Jika kamu BERSABAR dan BERTAKWA, maka sesungguhnya yang demikian itu termasuk urusan yang diutamakan" (3:186)

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! BERSABARlah kamu dan KUATKANlah KESABARANmu dan tetaplah bersiap-siaga dan BERTAWAKALlah kepada Allah agar kamu BERUNTUNG." (3:200)

Wallahu'alam. Wassalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.